Discover Challenge: The Things We Leave Behind
Dream big or go home. Or is it go hard or go home? Whatever it is, I took it to heart and I went. Far away from home, leaving it all behind. Friends, family, work. Roughly 3400 kms or 2100 miles. People do it all the time, spread their wings and fly, pack their bags and run. At the time it seemed like an easy choice to make, a Big Adventure. And it was. I met people, I saw places, did things that I would never have done if I’d stayed nestled in the heart of my over protective family.
I wouldn’t be who I am now if I had stayed home, that’s a hard truth to face sometimes. Harder are the things you miss, the people, the events, those things we left behind. Weddings and funerals spring to mind for me but more so the funerals. Both heartbreaking to miss in their own way, the joys and the sorrows, the joy in the sorrow. The knowledge that there’s a person that was part of your life, had a place in your heart is gone and you never got to say goodbye. The lost conversations, the meals we never shared, they all weigh heavy in my heart.
Of all the things I left behind, I miss the relationships the most. As much as they have endured the separation they are not what they would have been had I stayed. But I didn’t, I left them behind, left us behind. Now it’s time to leave the sorrow and guilt behind. Or at least pretend to.